Sunday, November 13, 2011

Transition

So this is a dance that I did for my art class in China a couple of years ago. This dance is to show the struggle that I was having transitioning from a life of gymnastics to a life of school. The dance shows the frustration of spending all of that time and money on doing gymnastics and developing all of these skills only to realize that now I can't do those skills anymore and they haven't helped in life. At the beginning of the dance the movements are controlled, especially while holding the handstand. But as the dance goes on the movements get more frustrated showing the frustration of not being able to perform those same tricks anymore.

The dance was performed in our school's locker room to show the different lifestyle that I had to accommodate to. Also there are several words in the song that inspired me to do this dance. Some of the words in the chorus are "determination", "no substitution", "retaliation". These are words that go along with the feelings in gymnastics. While being a gymnast you become determined to do all of your routines at your best in order to get a good score. Or you are determined to work hard in conditioning in order to become stronger. While being a gymnast there is no substitution. While you are standing on that beam about to do your tumbling pass, it is only you. Only you can do YOUR beam routine. You can't ask somebody else to do it for you. While you are a gymnast there are many times when you want to retaliate and just give up. There are times when you just want to step off the beam and say, "No, I can't do this". But its that determination and that self-realization that only you can perform this routine. Which can go along with the frustration of going through all of these emotions and realizing that it didn't help me keep these skills after such a long time.

I guess we can put this into a real-life situation though. We may be discouraged when we realize that we didn't get the desired outcomes from something. But we may have learned something from these experiences that will help us in a different way than we expected. For gymnastics I may have not kept those skills that I wanted to, but what I learned from gymnastics was to be a hard worker, and to not give up until it is finished. The words in the song can be applied in our life as well. We need to be determined in order to get things done. We are determined to keep a job that pays well. We are determined to give our children the best life possible. In real-life there aren't substitutions. We can't ask for a substitute when we are going through trials because then we wouldn't learn from them. We have to live through our OWN life. During our life we may and probably have retaliated against someone. We may have retaliated against our parents, or against God. There probably have been many times when we have wanted to just walk out of any trials that we are going through and say, "I'm done". But because of determination and that self-realization that we have to push through these things ourselves in order to grow from them helps us to not retaliate....or at least not retaliate as much. So hopefully you take this to heart because I have been trying :)) And I hope that you enjoy the video :)

Keep Going

Hello again,

Sorry I haven't been updating my blog as much as I should be. So I will just give a quick update on everything that has been happening. Classes have been going good. I am passing them which is always a good thing. I still got a job and have been getting paid enough to survive :) I also sent off my visa application to go and see my parents in Saudi Arabia. Hopefully it will come in a couple weeks because I sent it off two weeks ago.

Sadly I have only been on like four dates this semester. And I am actually happy about that because I don't want to be worrying about drama with different guys and serious relationships and all that stuff. I am going to focus on school mainly this first semester. If a guy wants me ask me out on a date, then good for him! But I am not gonna be stressing about whether a guy will ask me out this week because I got other things that I can be doing. Don't get me wrong there are PLENTY of cute guys here that I would like to go on a date with. But I prefer the guy asking me on a date, and not the girl chasing after him. So yeah thats my opinion on love right now. It is pretty weird because now there are couples EVERYWHERE!! Wherever I look there is some couple holding hands and doing all that lovey-dovey stuff. haha and its weird to think that these people could possibly get married O.o Cause in high school you think when you're in a relationship it will only last until high school. But here when your in a relationship there is a possibility that you will get married. That's another thing that I am not looking forward to. I don't want to be talking about getting married and all that stuff now because first, I AM 18!!! I should be having fun and love being single! Not being attached to a man. And I am planning on going on a mission, so I shouldn't be worrying about getting married because I got to go and do the Lord's work. So yeah that is what has been happening here.

There is a song that I have been listening to lately that has been helping me get through my tough times in college. It is called "Can't Go Back Now" by: The Weepies. This song is about pushing through and walking on because you can't change the past. You always have to look forward and you can get through this. So I listen to this when I get stressed out and wonder whether I can get through this. This song helps me keep that perspective that this will help me get a good job and that this is all beneficial.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JscAwVu2QI&ob=av2e

So this is a link to see the song and the music video. I am not entirely sure why the artists are muppets. But it's the lyrics of the song that are the most important thing. :) So enjoy!!!